Today is town market day and
hopefully at good day to sell my old bike. After moving around town to different spots we
gave up. After dinner we managed to get
the bike out to the campground where it now sits in front of the office for
sale. In between I talked to my daughter
then headed to one the events I was to volunteer at. However, I ended up being almost an hour
late. Upon arriving one of the Stewart's
sent me to the spot I was to work. There
I met Megan again who had volunteered to fill in for me as they thought I was
not going to show up. Her partner was
quite put out by my late appearance and made sure all knew it was just not
proper. I surely thought she would have
me taken out behind the Cathedral and flogged.
She reminded me of the times I’d
been so inflexible, demanding all go just as it was suppose to. A time of being very put out by those who did
not follow the rules, or arrive on time so to speak. There are times that I catch myself still
doing this behavior. I’m sure now that
this is part of the funk I find myself in. Things are supposed to turn out, or go a
certain way and I don’t want to repaint my picture yet again. The canvas is extremely heavy do to the lays
of repainting. Will there ever be a time
I don’t have to repaint the picture?
That all will be as what was painted?
I know how to do that just paint a safe picture with me surrounded by
fences and walls that should do it.
Sunday, May 22, 2011, 11:15 am:
Mark is off to Canterbury today. We were up early so he could bet packed in
time to catch his 10 am train. He would
have to get off the train and bus part of the way to his destination. Also, he’d have to ride across London to get
from one train station to the other.
From there he is off to Amsterdam then maybe a few other
destinations. He let me know later in
the day that he had arrived safely with little problems. After he left I rode around town looking for a
new front tire, but had no luck. There
is not much open in Salisbury on Sundays.
When back to the campground took a nap then headed into town to spend
time at the Kings head making SKYPE calls.
Spoke to my mother, Daughter and son catching up on doing here and there. Today my son was holding a one year birthday
party for my granddaughter Rebecca.
After that it was time to see the new Pirates of the Caribbean movie.
Monday, May 23, 2011, 6:07 AM
Arizona, 2:07 pm England
Mark discovered a bump and torn
sidewall on the front tire of my bike.
Because of this my plan of heading to Southeast England has been put on
hold. This morning after porridge and
coffee at the Kings Head I stopped in at Stonehenge Cyclery to get a new
tire. I spoke with Pip for a bit than
asked Christopher to order me a tire called an Armadillo Cross Trail made by
Specialized Bikes. It will take two days
to get the tire delivered so I’m not going anywhere this week which is just as
well. It is overcast today and quite
windy again so don’t really feel like riding a fully packed bike in
weather. Really don’t feel like doing
much of anything and am hoping that once I can get on the road this will
pass. I’m allowing myself to do nothing
right now in hopes of finding something to talk to my spirit.
I sorted out my money which
helped me feel better about being here as I am quite worried about having
enough for the trip this year. In
November I resigned from 227 Tax Service dba as H & R Block after ten years
of working the Block stores in Flagstaff.
So it was time for me to head on down the
road into my own business. This was not
something I ever expected to be doing again, but with the help of my friend
Lisa and her partner Gene it’s a done deal.
My new office is in one of Flagstaff’s historic buildings. When my customers came in they did nothing
but rave about the building. The tax
season turned out to be as good as I’d hoped for I'm in England aren't I.
So many things happened since
last November that has caused me to sink into this grand funk. First my son-in-law decided he no longer
wanted to be married. He expounded on
the reasons he no longer wished to be married which ended being a cover for the
real reason. He’d had a girlfriend for
some time now and wanted to be with her.
Sadly this caused my daughter and grandchildren great distress. Then my brother-in-law was diagnosed with
brain cancer and given about six months to live. I’ve known Victor since he was seventeen and
was very much more a brother then brother-in-law. Vic, my sister and their daughter Laura made
the trip from Florida to California via car.
Victor wanted to spend what time he had left with his daughters and
grandchildren. My son and daughter
wanted to see their uncle before he passed so I made a trip with each of them
to California. My daughter and I made
yet another trip for his memorial service.
My former wife fell out of her
car in October breaking her foot. This
caused her to end up in a rehabilitation facility in order to regain strength
in her legs and get some other health problems under control. She was expected to regain her mobility and
return home. However, the first week in
January she took a turn for the worst and I received a call from my son on
January 9th she had died. We
set about making arrangements for the funeral and setting up room for friends
and family who were arriving. My former
wife had a lot of friends and most showed up at the memorial service. My children and grandchildren still hurt from
this loss. Within two weeks I had two
people with whom I had spent the better part of my life ripped from the
world. So many major losses not to
mention several other events happening during that time have taken their toll.
My therapist as suggested that I
take the trip in the hopes of having yet again a spiritual renewal. So far not much of anything happening which
hopefully will change once my new tire arrives, or will I find yet another
reason not to move from this spot? As
usual when I look around, and pay attention there is God talking to me though
people, places and things. When I pay
attention understanding begins to take place.
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